My Grace Is Sufficient

Overwhelmed.

That is how I feel right now.

A lot of different things are running through my head and the thoughts that see to dominate them all are:

• "Will I be good enough?"
• "Will I make a mess of this whole thing?"
• "I am under-qualified!"
• "Am I making a big mistake?"
• "Did God really not open doors?"
• "What if....."

And so the list goes on. I am nervous, excited, and terrified. This is what it feels like to take a leap of faith.

As I sit here and these thoughts run through my head; competing for the dominant spot of doubt, this verse comes to mind:

"But He said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for My power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me." 2 Corinthians 12:9

"Now wait a minute, Lord....that isn't of much comfort, I still have to face this!"

My grace is sufficient.

"But God, I could totally blow this whole thing!

My grace is sufficient.

"I am under-qualified!"

My grace is sufficient.

"But what if...."

Beloved, My grace is sufficient for all your doubts and fears. You have taken the leap of faith, now leave the details in My hands. I am with you! You need not be afraid. I created you and loved you before you were born. I promised that I had plans to prosper you and to give you hope and a future. I have never left you and I never will. I have brought you this far, choose to trust me with every moment of the rest of this adventure.

It may not always be easy. It may not always be painless. It may bruise you and push you to your limits, but never doubt that I have a plan! I am molding you into a woman after My heart. Trust me and hang on....for My grace is sufficient!

A Valentine's Day Post

Two weeks ago I wrote a Scouting blog post and suddenly, I became popular in the Scouting world! Overnight my blog post went viral and I had all kinds of "super scouters" emailing me. It was incredibly humbling, but now that things have settled down, I think I will go back to being the blogger of random posts that maybe someone will find entertaining or relatable.

That being said.....I really am not a fan of Valentine's Day. The cat is out of the bag! No going back now!

Don't get me wrong....I like what it stands for (*love* is case ya'll haven't had enough coffee to function today). I love the adorable stuffed animals, pretty flowers, and funny captions all over Facebook.

However, Valentine's Day is a painful reminder of things lost (if you're thinking along the lines of a boyfriend kind of thing....stop thinking.)

Last Valentine's Day had me attending a funeral and watching the world as I knew it slowly crumble (though I am not sure I truly grasped that at the time). My comfortable "bubble" popped and the year that has followed has brought many tears and much heartache.

HOWEVER (don't start feeling sorry for me yet, peeps), that time brought me closer to God. It really blew the doors open for me to experience Agape love. A love that holds you together when you have no will left. A love that brings people into your life to love on you. A love that gives you a reason to get up and fight another day. A love that allows you to be still.

Was it easy? Heck, no. Do I feel stronger? Not really. Am I stronger? Probably. Did I learn where my true source of strength can be found? Yes.

This Valentine's Day will probably find me sitting at home singing, "Everybody's got somebody but me....," but I also will be looking back at the bitter-sweetness of this whole year.

See, Valentine's Day should be more than a day. Love is a verb and something I believe that should be put into practice daily. Love was never meant to be limited to a day....if it was, it wouldn't really be love.

True love is something that I believe that you can only begin to fathom when you have experienced the love of God. Love never fails and love never loses hope. In that I find my comfort.

Time does heal all wounds and as time passes, I am sure I will begin to really appreciate Valentine's Day again. In the meantime....Happy Valentine's Day, ya'll! I hope you feel loved :)

"Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance."

1 Corinthians 13:7